A little thought

The wheels in my head are spinning, and if you want to know that means I am thinking, thinking, and some more thinking.  While I am writing about all the thinking I am doing...it made me think of a funny story with my husband the other day.

He took me out on a date, because I so desperately needed one.  I told him I needed a break so he made a break happen, and we went out to eat.  I started talking about this, and than that, with a little more this, and a little more that.  I just thought it was normal conversation, when he said, "Wow, you have been thinking about ALL this."  hahaha....we are so different.  Mention something to me, and the wheels in my head start a spinning.  I told him I know it is exhausting, try living with this brain.  

Ok...back to my original thought.

Tonight was Enrichment, and I have to say I completely enjoyed listening to this person speak about parenting, relationships, and communication.

She said something that I loved!  She said, "That the Lord would want us to parent the way he would, and with his help.  That he is FULLY INVESTED in these children."

Wow, I knew that, but I never looked at it that way.  He is fully invested in my children.  He wants them to be happy, successful, loving children too.  And He wants to help.  

She reminded us of the quote by Julie Beck that says, "The ability to qualify for, receive, and act on personal revelation is the single most important ability that can be acquired in this life."

I remember hearing her make that statement, and I thought I am going to work on that.  Well, I am going to again start working on that.  Because I need the Lords help in raising his children.

So another quote she shared was by Patricia Holland, "If I were Satan and wanted to destroy a society, I think I would stage a full-blown blitz on women.  I would keep them so distraught and distracted that they would never find the calming strength and serenity for which their gender has always been known."

I really love those words...that is a great warning to women to recognize when Satan is attacking.  The words keep them so distraught and distracted, those are some good descriptive of what we are facing.

It's no picnic

Neil L. Anderson said in October general conference, "Having young children is not easy. Many days are just difficult. A young mother got on a bus with seven children. The bus driver asked, “Are these all yours, lady? Or is it a picnic?”
“They’re all mine,” she replied. “And it’s no picnic."

Quite frankly this is how I feel today, it's no picnic. How is it that one can feel so much grattitude for all that I have, and yet all in the same breath feel completely overwhelmed? Is there something to say to a tired young mother that will not only lift her spirits, but increase her energy?

I told my husband tonight, "I have so much desire to feel energy, vibrant, strong, lovingly, and patient, and yet my body feels otherwise." Today I kept trying to move, and yet I couldn't...my body completely disagreed with my mind. So I was forced to lay down all day. Some would say WAHOO!!! It doesn't work like that when your a mother, all that takes place in the home requires you, and the worst part about it, when Mom is down others follow suit. So, at the end of my night I am assessing the damages, and tomorrow I will hope for a more cooperative body that will correct the problems of today.

But amongst my exhaustion today, I can say I wouldn't trade it, none of it!!! I felt so much joy today as I watched my children destroy my house, why? Because they are wonderful! They are exactly who they are suppose to be, and more. My oldest asked if he could do family home evening tonight, and with no help...He ran the show. WOW!!! The whole time, I fought my body for the few minutes of family home evening, and required it to be an active participate in this event...because it matters. He matters to me, and the person he is becoming.

And as much as I dread this exhaustion and nausea that will still be here tomorrow...its just right. There is a life inside of me, and that is a miracle full of blessings. So I will take it with a grateful hand.